The Blog of kilyra

I haven't been posting as often as I should, there's been a lot happening lately.  Lots of work drama and big changes.

But all I want to share today is about last night.  I'm a belly dancer, but unfortunately it has been a long time since I've gotten to perform due to the instructor I last had (didn't do performances for her students) and the move from Edmonton to Vancouver.

I finally got into a dance school here and last night was our first performance!  It was so much fun to be back on stage, albeit for a fairly small audience.  I got to watch other performances too both from back stage and the audience.  There was just this familiar feeling being back in the rush of a performance.

I was antsy being in the greenroom so eventually migrated to back stage just to watch.  And I never felt stage fright for going on.  I mean I had been doing the routine since January, so that's a long time to get to know it inside and out. 

I remember getting on stage and even though the lights were bright I could see the audience.  It was easily a couple hundred people even though the theatre wasn't full.  I was going along ok.  Sure, I was shaking a little but it was such an adrenaline rush, how can you not a bit right?

Well during one part of the routine you have to hold a pose on one leg with the other bent and just touching the ground a bit.  As soon as I did that, my bit of shaking turned into full blown vibrating.  I mean, it looked like I was shimmying I was vibrating so bad.  I relaxed my leg and was alright again, but inwardly I was just chuckling at myself.  I didn't even at that time feel scared to be on stage, but I must have been because my body was moving like I had drank 10 redbulls!

But, I never messed up, and I had a big smile on my face.

It just felt great to be alive yesterday.