The Blog of kilyra

Anthony and I went back to Edmonton this last weekend for a wedding.  It was a crazy whirlwind but it was great to get out and visit friends I hadn't seen in months.

I took one day off work only to return to find it a bit of a madhouse here.  ONE DAY.  My assistant was sick and took most of the day off which meant everything that was supposed to be done on Mondays was not...which meant my workload doubled for today.

I'm just not getting paid enough to care.

I really had this crazy urge last night to stay at the airport and be on standby for anywhere but here.  I moved to Vancouver only a year and a bit ago because I loved BC so much (still do), and I truly feel ready to run away from that too. 

Obviously it's not the places I'm running away from, but I'm not sure what exactly it is then.

After being back for half a day I already feel as down as I was before I left.  I think I just need some alone time.  Not sure how to get it though so I guess I just have to suck it up.

It would be to rent a cabin for a month or more and just isolate myself from the world - Anthony included.  Maybe then the answers of what I'm so desperate to run away from would become clear.  As it is, there's too many distractions to be introspective for long.

Maybe I should see that as a blessing though.  Maybe the realizations I've got to make are ones I won't know how to deal with?

Alright, that's enough pathetic, cryptic crap talk for now!